My roommate asked -repeatedly- that I calculate how many calories I'm consuming since I only look at carbs, fats, proteins and fibers for WW and I was surprised to see that there have been days that I have consumed less than 900 calories. That is nowhere near enough calories! That could explain the migraines, maybe? I consume an average of 1200-1300 calories a day, which isn't bad, but I really shouldn't dip below 1200 on any given day.
But then I hear this little voice in the back of my head, murmuring how "a moment on a lips is a lifetime on the hips"or some other crazy Pro Ana saying I've read numerous times. It's crazy thinking, and I know this. But ooh am I teetering on the edge here... this is dangerous territory. I am getting stronger in not succumbing to my cravings and that makes me feel powerful. It's crazy how the mind (my mind) works.
I'll use this week to screw my head on straight and provide a detailed progress report on my next weigh in day (01/24).
Until then, I hope you do enjoy my rantings and bear with me.
While I understand how it is VERY tempting to just go with this lack of appetite and very low calorie consumption, understand that the medication you are on is not a permanent thing and that one day you will be off of it and your appetite will be back to normal. This means that the weight you lose now, because it is not lost in a healthy manner, has a high probability of being put back on. It's hard but if you do it the right way once, you wont have to do it again :D
ReplyDeleteI agree, but I think that because of this lack of appetite it will be easier to "train" myself to eat smaller and healthier meals. At least that's what I'm telling myself. The side effects of the drug will wear off within a few weeks so this will be put to the test sooner than I'd like :).
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